The paralysis of shock stays in the body until released. Imagine your loved one dying . ..This often never happens and thus the ripple effect grows as age and time and incidents are layered upon it. There are many traditional ways that all societies allowed the healing space to happen – as it is needed to move through life easily.
Just recognising that time out to heal may be the answer may be the first step. Talk therapy may not be your best move. Any release is possible – first please be gentle with yourself and prioritise start with self care. Please find yourself a person who works with all of you – not just taking or prescribing things. Maya/Arvigo practitioners are excellent at the total all over approach – and involve you in the self care needed to heal.
To understand more, start with the natural healing easy solving all your problems apps – solutions for questions you may not have thought to ask – or that no one could answer . . there are also various books in the resources here Please at least listen to the portion of the Reunion MP3 as it may well be the beginning of your sleeping better and starting to feel your way back. Enjoy!!!
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